How do you love the unlovable?

I spend a lot time “acting the fool”. Especially now that I am “spiritual” I find myself saying things and wondering, why did I say that?? Who do I think I am? Acckk!! I find myself in situations and ask myself, what am I even doing here? Him (my husband) wonders about me too. He thinks I have lost it, and worries I am going to put myself in a bad position one way or another.

He doesn’t believe me anymore when I say someone is my friend. I refer to everyone as my friend whether I know them or not. Like the guy who begs for money at the big intersection near our house. I give him a dollar now and then and he gives me a blessing and calls me "baby." I love that, so he is my friend. Am I desperate for friends? Probably, or I suppose I might have a broader definition of “friend” than Him does. (I’m sure glad he doesn’t read most of my posts….)

Him’s best quality is his sense of humor. He makes me laugh every day. He is subtly irreverent and loves finding humor in the absurd. He readily laughs at himself too, a rare gift. He laughs at me more though – I give him all his best material. I took singing lessons a few months ago and was practicing some pretty high notes at home, in my room, behind closed door. He knocked on the door and politely asked “will you please wait until I die to do that?” Then he said he was going to go ahead and bury the cats. … Nice.

That is pretty unlovable, particularly since I was really trying to sound pretty … but I know Him and his love for me, so he can say that, someone else I would slug. Or more than likely I would cry.

How do we love the unlovable? including ourselves when we mess up, make a fool of ourselves, miss the mark, when we feel superior or inferior to others, don’t live up to expectations, when we hurt or disappoint someone whether intentional or not, or when they hurt us…whatever.

How do you love the unlovable?

Peace
Keren

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

The usefullness or beauty of something may not be immediately evident. I almost discarded this photo because at first glance it seemed to be just a blur. Just as I started to hit "delete" something caught my eye, and it was Bailey's (cat) eye. I zoomed in some and the above was revealed. The ephemeral movement weighted by the eye in focus, and hind feet on the ground.

It also appears to be a fairly good representation of how my life has seemed the last few weeks, months...year(s). A whirl, and she was just rolling down a few stair steps.

Peace
Keren

Conversion

"A conversion is a lonely experience. We do not know what is going on in the depths of the heart and soul of another. We scarcely know ourselves". ... Dorothy Day.

I have just been formally introduced to Dorothy Day. I bow before the above quote, and kneel within its significance.

How can anyone say Love, Peace, Life is,or even should be, always easy. (sometimes yes....hopefully)

Peace
Keren

PS With much gratitude to Fr. Rminijsa. Hey... she was a Benedictine Oblate. Encompasses a lot for me with regard to my distant but present guides. :o)

Morning Prayer (anonymous)

It is said that Eleanor Roosevelt carried the following prayer in her purse:

"Our Father, who has set a restlessness in our hearts and made us seekers after that which we can never fully find, keep us at tasks too hard for us, that we may be drawn to you for strength. Amen."

Peace
Keren

Lovers Lane with Pink Impatiens

Peace, and Happy Weekend.
Love
Keren

Both Sides Now - Optimism Wins

It seems to me, part of the silver lining, around the cloud of high gas prices, is perhaps making more opportunity for us to spend time paying loving attention to and enjoying the people and things in our own communities.

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Better to do a good deed near at home than go far away to burn incense....Amelia Earhart

This describes my plan for the weekend. Haven't yet decided on the good deed part, but "near at home" is settled.

Peace
Keren

Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle v2

This principle has always appealed to me on a spiritual level, even though it is of course based on quantum (sub-atomic) physics.
In very layman terms, it states that the very act of observing/measuring something changes it, so its position /attributes cannot be determined with 100% accuracy.
Crude comparison for now, but in day-to-day terms, for example, when someone is standing behind me, watching me when I am typing, I freeze and can barely remember the keyboard placements.

Could it be the very act of trying to observe/measure our own concept of God/Love changes it. To me it seems once one revelation is understood, immediately something comes along to challenge it, question or doubt our understanding of it. Hmmm .

This post resulted from a dream last night, Im going to come back to it later….Gotta get towork now.
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Ok Im home for lunch and wanted to add this.

When God/Love measures/probes our heart, we are changed....when we feel it and respond to it.

Too, this principle may also indicate our inability to judge anything without touching some aspect of it - whether negative or positive.


Peace
Keren