12.30.2007

Preparing the Jordan


“Too many people spend too much time trying to perfect something before they actually do it. Instead of waiting for perfection, run with what you’ve got and fix it as you go”… Paul Arden

This is my New Year’s resolution for 2008. Quit using the expectation of perfection to prevent me from experiencing anything or anyone (including myself).

Peace and Love
Keren

2 comments:

Anne said...

Oh, isn't it interesting how we humans differ. I always jump in pall mall, willy nilly, usually never looking before I leap. Perhaps I need to make a resolution to check the tides a little more first. Not for perfect conditions, but reasonable ones. :)

Keren said...

Anne - I think you should just stay the way you are~! It would be great to beas free to leap as you are!

As much as I think I have grown, I still tend to worry about what other people might think, I learning to go ahead and do stuff anyway, but not all the time. Particularly with my art or something I am not confident about. Fear of being judged.

The first time I submitted a portrait to a contest - I sat in my car an hour before I could get the courage to take it in. I ended up get getting 2nd place and was thrilled. I have been turned down for almost every other contest I have submitted to since tho, and I have to look at why if I am going to change in that regard.

Perfection is not going to be my goal however.

Also with some people, I (probably mistakenly) think they want me to be perfect or at least be a certain way, and I try to live up to what I think they expect of me. I still hope to be sensitive, but letting someone else's life rule me or my behavior where I dont try to improve or whatever, has gotta go.

Before I joined the Catholic Church I thought I had to be perfect before God or Jesus would want me to be a part of them. Also I was looking for the perfect match of religion/worship to fit me. Im glad I leaped when I did. It would be like holding out for the perfect mate and then never ever having one.

I so want to unconditionally accept people and situations for what they are and I believe I am close but certainly not there yet! God has not given up on me tho!

Actually, I've read that the Hebrew word for perfect is very similar to that of compassionate. I hope to try to be that kind of perfect and not worry about any other definition.

That is it.

Peace Happy New Year.
Love you so much!
Keren