Lent 2009: Day 7

Lenten Journey through the Spiritual Alphabet
Psalm 119, Sustainable Love

Daleth (part 1)
I lie prostrate in the dust;
give me life in accord with your word.
I disclosed my ways and you answered me;
teach me your laws.
Make me understand the way of your precepts;
I will ponder your wondrous deeds.
I weep in bitter pain;
in accord with your word to strengthen me.
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Powerless, alone, not knowing what to do. Husband in pain, needing a major surgery. I hate it when he is pain. I hate it when I don’t know what to do to somehow get my way and I don’t even know what it is I’m asking for.

Please God, why don’t You spell it out for me?

I yearn for complete incorporation of Your Law of Love, your Living Water. What does that feel like?

You strengthen our spirit through suffering. Life is indestructible, the body is not.

Heavenly Father, knowing this does not make it easy, or make me always nice.